Disclaimer: Some of the incidents narrated in this story are purely fiction and does not relate to real life incidents and should not be associated to any co-incidence as well. In no way should this narration be used against me, by portraying the same to my beloved in a different perspective ( though she doesn't read my blog !!). Else the repercussions could be bad to the people who would prefer to take undue advantage of this narration !! Hope the message is clear. ;-)
I always remember the days gone by
It’s all about the days to which I said Goodbye.
For each moment spent here meant a lot to me
Wish I was here always, never did I foresee
Time the culprit made me leave this place
But your thoughts does bring smile to my face
Wish I can walk back in time and be there again
But it’s a chance which we never stand to gain.
My thoughts of you still fresh in mind
Can someone, Please give me a chance to rewind?
For each moment spent with you meant a lot to me
Wish I was here always, never did I foresee.
This incident of my life dates back to my higher secondary school days, hardly a few years back ( C'mon believe me Im still young !! Dont let my shape and size influence your interpretation of my age) and probably those were the days which rank right up there in my list of best days in my life. I guess there was a reason for it!! Like every other teenager of that age I fell for a girl. For a moment you may feel what's so great about falling in love but the point to note over here is what preceded this feeling and the follies and jollies you commit as part of this lovely phase of your life called "teenage”. If I had to treat this as just another teenage hang-up version of a story then this would have never found a space in my blog worth writing. But anyways, the female protagonist of this story is named "Revathi" (not the real name, but I appreciate protecting the real identity is required, by the way I’m still an open book).
Beautiful, Innocent and shy are probably the three distinct traits of a girl that you would notice in her. I didn’t understand the concept of falling for a girl until I met her!! Boring is the right word which comes to my mind whenever I heard romance or for a matter of fact watching any romantic hindi movie. Revathi's advent into my life was like a much needed monsoon in a dry and arid land. It got my heart going at a pace which it probably never had ( barring few exceptions - especially for my wife and probably when I had to climb a 10 story building due to the lack of aux-power to run the elevator).
After seeing her, my internal transformation was such that all the boring romantic Hindi movies suddenly seemed interesting, especially the one titled "1942- A Love Story”. Well the main song of the movie “pyar hua chup ke se" ranked high in my heart’s chartbuster list, which also in a way described the romantic feeling I had. Imagine listening to a song nearly 80 times in a day approximately 400 minutes - nearly 6 hrs (Pure 6 productive hours that could have been put into my JEE exam preparations in turn helping me stand like a proud kid before your mom). I just feel happy for the reason that I let my heart precede over my mind, unlike all those morons who used to come home from school announcing their grades aloud, just to make my mom envy. Well I always used to categorize them as “Onida” (owner’s pride neighbors envy), but never did my mom have the chance to feel the “Onida” moment.
Nevertheless the point being Revathi was my only goal to attain, but as some wise man said “you need to have the guts to see your guts coming out, If not then u consider yourself lucky and let your guts stay where it is “. In a very loosely-lipped neighborhood and the era of late 90’s were not conducive for romancing and that too with your neighbor (things would have been lot different if Mark zhukerberg’s (FB owner) mom decided to get pregnant 10 years earlier). Her thoughts in my mind used to rhyme like a sweet song in my ears and I feel like being alone with her in a garden full of flowers in short just like a bollywood hero singing a romantic song for his love.
“The moon with all its shine brings light to the world
And your smile with all its bloom, pleasures my heart.
Moments spent to get a glimpse of you
Brings me pain filled with tears and joy.
As the doctors say an apple a day keeps sickness away
Your smile made my heart beat in its own way
Healthy or unhealthy little did I care!!
As they say all is fair in love and war
Each moment spent with you was precious
And every glance of you made me anxious
Never did I realize that you were conscious
Oh god your presence always made me nervous. “
I left ur doorstep with a sad feeling
Tears in my eyes, guess I'm sulking
You're my love and Its that feeling
which makes me cry when its raining.
Your thoughts and memories so strong
which made me carry them all along.
it takes me back to your doorstep
Not sure !! Will you ever take me back?
Farther I go nearer are your thoughts
Guiding me like the distant stars.
Feel my beats, for they are on a rise
It kills me!! I need to go back in time
Hold me tight, please don't make me cry
My heart seeks you, wants you don't know why
---- Sabareesan Sankaran
